CUTTING THE ROPE

Cutting the Rope is a popular game in the Iphone genre as I was told.
I dont know how the game is played but I guess as the name suggests, its about cutting ropes and strings attached to subjects.
Its been a long time since I am personally writing entries again in this blog, as I have been sharing and posting entries and quotes that I love and was reflecting my state or level of mind at that point of time.
This is the first time in almost 5 months since I am writing a personalised entry again.

I always think that "I" could always clear the layers or understand the mind all by my own work or understanding but it seems that its really inevidible that sometimes, even higher evolved or enligtened beings need some tools and help in this matter.
I just went for a past live clearing session lately. To cut the cords with ancient patterns brought froward.

Not so much for anything but to really understand or to make the mind understand that current emotional states or thoughts are all really just brought forward. For some if, if conscious enough, the stories & dramas from past lives surfaces and it is all just to teach or tell us something.
I always think that believing your past lives stories are really very romantic and I shall keep it that way. But the bottom line is to understand that we dont own the stories, the dramas, the conditions, patterns, programmes ... whatever you like to call it.
Its all just thoughts stored & stored , from lifetimes to lifetimes , buried in the subconcious mind and when conditions permits, it just surfaces. Not to traumatised or victimise , its just to teach us something that we are suppose to know.

How beautiful.

My psychic saw my past storyline.. well almost what I expected it to be but deep down, I am pulled to believe its as the other way round. Well, its also only a belief and concept that I want to believe to make things easier for myself and when I look at this belief and why am I doing this , is it true that I still want to hold on to the guilt ? Or is it because I need to wake up and see the lessons learned from all these stories so that it doesnt replay over and over again ? Even when my psychic told me that I had it harder than anyone else involved in the stories, but then again its was only a view of the uninformed mind when it was not awakened yet.

Above all that has been experienced , it is the beauty of everything being and happening the way it is and nothing lesser or more.

I trust and know that the question asked when I embarked on this journey will be answered. I have nothing to fall back on but only the faith and acceptance that is somehow still there very deep down. This is the essence of the consciousness.

Like the movie " 3 idiots " , Al iz well, al iz well. Isnt it beautiful ?

Bringing Love to the Shadow

You cannot justify not accepting or loving others. There is no one here who does not deserve your love and acceptance. Some people may be difficult to love. They may challenge you. They may have qualities that reflect your own unconscious negative beliefs. But that just provides you with an opportunity to make your own shadow conscious. It enables you to bring love to a part of yourself you have never liked or accepted.

Excerpt from The Wounded Child’s Journey into Love’s Embrace by Paul Ferrini

	When I give love, I bring you into the circle of our innocence. Love is truly a gift because it does not belong to you or to me. It is a state of consciousness we enter into when we see our equality. Love is my gift to not just to you, but also to myself. When I choose anything other than love, I am isolated and alone. By seeking to ostracize you, I have chosen to isolate myself.
	I cannot choose to love you without also loving myself, nor can I choose to love myself without loving you. This is not a truism, but a law of life. What is commonly understood as self love is merely selfishness. My selfishness excludes you and isolates me. But real love for myself does not exclude you. It naturally reaches out to embrace you. Love always makes love. It never makes war. If war is happening, if struggle and pain are happening, love has not entered yet. Selfishness has closed the door and locked love out. But love is always there, waiting in the wings. As the door of the heart opens, love greets us. Until the laws of equality are understood and embraced, the concept of Atonement means nothing. There is no exclusive salvation in this world. What is true for some must be true for all. Love is a continual choice in our experience because in every moment we decide whether to stand with others or to stand alone. To stand alone is different than to be alone. I can be alone with you. I can be alone with myself. In each of these cases, I am in relationship. But when I choose to stand alone, I am choosing to be separate. This is an impossible choice. I cannot be separate. No one can "be" separate. I can only "be" in relation. The very word "being" suggests relationship. Choosing to stand apart is choosing an illusion. It is choosing a world of "non-being." It is a perverse ontological choice, a kind of psychological suicide. When I don't feel loved, I choose to be separate. Or to put it another way, separation occurs when I accept the idea "I am not loved." The idea "I am not loved" prevents me from giving or receiving love. It shuts off my love supply as long as I believe it. What we call ego is simply this belief and all the thoughts and actions that spring from it. Ego wants love, but it will not ask for it. If offered love, it probably would reject it. Ego says: "Fine. If I can't have love, I'll do without it." Ego is the belief in love-deprivation and the defense built against love. The belief "I am not loved" begins as a feeling "I do not feel loved." When I communicate this feeling, it is a call for love. I say: "I do not feel loved. Please love me." To this point, ego still has no foothold. As long as I am either loving or calling for love, I am a being in relationship with other beings. I belong inside the Circle of Atonement. Ego is established when I accept the idea "I am not loved." That idea is the basis of my shame. It quickly becomes "I do not deserve to be loved." That is why it is so important that feelings be communicated. They are a bridge to the reality of inclusion. When I am able to tell you that I hurt, the hurt lessens. When you listen to how I feel, you bid me enter the circle of my innocence. Feelings come and go. Sometimes I feel good. Sometimes I feel awful. This work is not about feeling good all the time, unless that is what is real for you. This work is about feeling whatever you are feeling without losing the awareness that you are loved. So this moment may be a difficult one for me, but I remember that I am loved. "I remember that I am loved, but I don't feel loved right now." This is my call for love. My call for love is honest and straightforward. It doesn't deny my feeling of disconnection, nor does it capitulate to it. It does not ask me to pretend to be "connected" when I don't feel that way, nor does it "feed" my feelings of separation with confirming thoughts and actions. It simply communicates how I feel. It enables me to ask for the love I think I lack. Every time I ask for love, I connect directly with the Holy Spirit, whose purpose is to answer me. Spirit knows that my call for love is as close to love as I can come in this moment. Spirit does not stand back in judgment and say: "How dare you ask for love? Don't you already know that you are perfect?" It simply answers my call for love with gentle reassurance. So long as I do not fabricate my feeling of being unloved into a belief that I am unloved, I live under Spirit's guidance. However, as soon as I let that temporary feeling of separation become a belief about who I am and who you are, then ego establishes its foothold in my psyche. Every day I have unhappy moments. Every day my brother or sister has unhappy moments. That is the warp and woof of life, the play of consciousness. The fact that I have unhappy moments is not a judgment of me. It is simply a sign that I am still learning. Learning my lessons as they come up, however difficult they may be, is still less difficult than pretending that I don't have to learn them. If I did not have lessons to learn, why would I choose to be in a classroom? So I experience the highs and low of emotion. That is just fine. That is the way it is here. When I experience the highs, I move upward without becoming inflated. And when I experience the lows, I move downward without allowing myself to get deflated. I take a deep breath and re-center. I am here. Up and down are just feelings that come and go. But I am here, in the center of my being: steady, on course. Experiencing my feelings always takes me back into balance. I ride out the high and the lows. It is a funny thing: experiencing my feelings enables me to let them go; denying them makes me hold onto them. When I hold onto them, I begin conceptualizing them, interpreting them. They become fixed beliefs about myself, rather than the dual play of emotion that they are. Sometimes I feel loved. Sometimes I don't. When I feel loved, I am a channel for love. And when I don't feel love, I call out for it. That is the real rhythm of my life in this embodiment. Anything other than this is embellishment. Anything other than this is a belief in inequality, a belief that I'm special, that the highs are my special reward, or that the lows are my special punishment. This simply is not true. It is just my conceit. Expanding The Circle When I give love, I bring you into the circle of our innocence. Love is truly a gift because it does not belong to you or to me. It is a state of consciousness we enter into when we see our equality. Love is my gift to not just to you, but also to myelf. When I choose anything other than love, I am isolated and alone. By seeking to ostracize you, I have chosen to isolate myself.

Inspiring Quotes from Eckhart Tolle

"When every thoughts absorbs your attention completely, when you are so identified with the voice in your head and the emotions that accompany it that you lose yourself in every thought and every emotion, then you are totally identified with form and therefore in the grip of the ego."

"Give up waiting as a state of mind. When you catch yourself slipping into waiting, snap out of it. Come into the present moment. Just be, and enjoy being. If you are present, there is never any need for you to wait for anything."

"If you are in the habit of creating suffering for yourself, then you are probably creating suffering for others too."

~ Eckhart Tolle ~

REAL FREEDOM

What am I still looking for ? What am I still looking for out there ? Am I still looking for 'myself ' out there ? How can it be ? I have always been here.... At home , at the center of me, Inner journey.

A realisation today. Realised that it wasnt even the other person that I've been holding on to or even in love with. It was only the projections and thoughts that made me think that I was and hence the 'missing' and the 'longing'... Merely holding on to an idea. Idea of falling in love with the perfect person when it was all along just a mind projection. The one out there isnt even like that ! How absurd...

Being in love with the tought of being in lOvE ? In Love ? How can a person be in Love if the natural state has always been Love... A person is LOVE.. Not be in love or fall IN Love.... That is never the case..

Its time to wake up.. Time to heal... Why am I still in a merry -go round ? Is it because that I dont want to heal ? Impossible.. I have woken with realisations and insights. Awaken with the key to freedom ~ Mindfulness, awareness, mirrors, mind projections....
Soon the truth will be known and real freedom in reach.....

Tao te Ching

To be whole, let yourself break.
To be straight, let yourself bend.
To be full, let yourself be empty.
To be new, let yourself wear out.
To have everything, give everything up.
Knowing others is a kind of knowledge; knowing yourself is wisdom.
Conquering others requires strength; conquering yourself is true power.
To realize that you have enough is true wealth.
Pushing ahead may succeed, but staying put brings endurance.
Die without perishing, and find the eternal.
To know that you do not know is strength.
Not knowing that you do not know is a sickness.
The cure begins with the recognition of the sickness.
Knowing what is permanent: enlightenment.
Not knowing what is permanent: disaster.
Knowing what is permanent opens the mind.
Open mind, open heart.
Open heart, magnanimity.
Lao Zi (Tao Te Ching)

Magnanimous –adjective 1. generous in forgiving an insult or injury; free from petty resentfulness or vindictiveness: to be magnanimous toward one's enemies. 2. high-minded; noble: a just and magnanimous ruler. 3. proceeding from or revealing generosity or nobility of mind, character, etc.: a magnanimous gesture of forgiveness.

I see You as Me...

I see only so much good in you but you see so much faults in me.. When you were angry and blamed me..i can only wonder why are you react like this.. You see? We are all only reflecting our innerself to the outside. We are after all Mirrors .. reflecting and projecting unto each other and into the world outside.

I am still sad sometimes why you dont take the responsibilty for your own feelings but blamed all your fears on me...until I saw that running away was the only way you knew how to react to your own fears and anger. I then understood...

My journey has brought me to see that whatever happened to me is my own doing. Do you have the integrity to take responsibility instead of getting angry and still seeing me as the triggers. Even till now you still see me as a trigger and still get iritated. Do you know why ?

Your being with another of that particular age is clearly reflecting your space now. Can you see that? I asked you why you let her into your space is to understand where your mind level is at this moment.. which is where it has always been. Your stories of " we get along better or she has no temper etc " all doesnt matter anymore as in time you will also see that all these are only in your mind reflections. I asked as this is just another story for learning sake.

All this time it was just myself assuming you were all the qualities I created for you as they were the qualities I see in myself.
Thats why it was so depressing when I saw clearly that it was just the mind bluffing me again and again and again.... The mind created the things which I thought you were because I needed to tell ME that you were actually good enough for me... that I finally found such a good guy that accepted me... that you can fulfill the needs in me... etc etc.. all just stories. Sometimes I still believe these stories are true, thats when the sadness comes again.

When sadness, anger, fears, frustrations are here, I know it is the ego mind playing its games again. Its the same for everyone. If you can see all the triggers that comes your way, be aware and learn from it, then you will be one step wiser. Until then, you will still be relying on your religious beliefs & concepts again.

MIRROR

The good you find in others, is in you too.

The faults you find in others, are your faults as well.

After all, to recognize something you must know it.

The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.

The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.

The world around you is a reflection, a mirror showing you the person you are.

To change your world, you must change yourself.

To blame and complain will only make matters worse.

Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.

What you see in others, shows you yourself.

See the best in others, and you will be your best.

Give to others, and you give to yourself.

Appreciate beauty, and you will be beautiful.

Admire creativity, and you will be creative.

Love, and you will be loved.

Seek to understand, and you will be understand.

Listen, and your voice will be heard.